And of course, when I don't feel so rushed, I don't feel like doing the things I wanted to do earlier... Bleh.

I've been feeling a mix of dissatisfied emotions today. I lied down in front of Doe Library to look up at the clouds at the sky... and it was a good feeling, but I was partly frustrated by all the floating little specs I kept seeing because of whatever the heck's up with my eyes. The thing that bugs me is that I don't really know what's bugging me right now. I just haven't been feeling.. clearheaded? for a while? maybe at all? Maybe it's just the combination of everything in general.

Maybe I should run down a list of things that have been bugging me.

1. I've been having trouble communicating with some people... people I don't talk to regularly, and people who I used to talk to regularly but not recently. I keep wondering if I'm just socially inept in that area and just have this tendency of making it awkward for the other person. It just bugs me because I want to talk about a lot of things, but I just get this impression that the other person doesn't want to... or doesn't care... so I stop. Then I get this feeling that even if I talked, I'd just be talking about myself a lot and my petty little issues. I like listening to people though!... kinda. I guess I have to be in a certain mood. but then I wonder how sincere I am when I do listen. I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE.

Well so that first point encompassed 3 things...

2. School. Too lazy to type this one up.

3. Sincerity.

...That's it for now.