Well, this post was a little overdue.

Olivia's post-it has been hanging above my head for the past several weeks now, and I've hardly done more than glance at it maybe a couple of times. My Listy's been staring at me whenever I open up Firefox, but I tend to simply gloss over that as well. I'm finding that if I really don't seem to be in the mood for doing something, it's really easy for me to simply not do it. Which really sucks when it's something that needs to be done.

PRAY

1. taking action
2. putting things we know and actually living it
3. valuing love and patience over material things
4. discipline

In the next few days... I need to start sorting out some things. Priorities I guess. I'll see.

---
So it occurred to me as I was updating my "These characters I like" list (yes I randomly keep lists of these on the computer) after discovering Being Human that it's really easy for me to become obsessed over objects that aren't... real? This might factor into my other hobbies as well, such as reading.

What I mean is... So for one thing, I have this sort of soft spot for stories about werewolves. You know, what with the whole Twilight/vampire craze going around... I guess I'm equally obsessed with werewolves? I dunno, I never really was interested in vampires that much. I read Dracula and all, which I actually kinda liked (but then again I have a soft spot for epistolary novels... but that's another story), but other than that I've never really liked vampire stories in movies/novels/whatever. Well, unless it REALLY is a good story. Werewolves, on the other hand... I generally tend to like more?

With that said, I have to say that George from Being Human is probably my favorite werewolf character ever. He's just so... not stereotypical? I can't really describe what it is I like about his character, aside from perhaps the fact that he's kinda nerdy, kinda OCD, and kinda spazzes on regular basis. Seriously, he's like my role model for spazzing, if such a thing exists. >_>

Well, that, and he's easy to associate with on some levels, I guess. That one scene where Mitchell tells him to leave town because otherwise he'd be hunted down by racist vampires, only for George to go, "And then what?" - after already having to abandon his fiancee, his family, his future, moving about aimlessly... and now there's vampires that exist that would kill him if they ever saw him because of his curse. And then what? That scene really got to me inside.

What I'm getting at is that I suppose in the recent days I've developed an obsession over characters like George - people who don't actually exist except in my entertainment. I enjoy getting sucked into their stories so much I forget that they're only caricatures of real life. And that real people are capable of being a lot more complex than these characters- a fact that I've been noticing lately at random moments. And that at some times, real people may seem undesirable, ugly compared to these characters that inevitably are idealized manifestations of the likable qualities that exist in people.

I feel like I've pointed this out before... or maybe just in my head a bunch of times.

I feel like in a lot of ways I've been neglecting the real world by getting so easily sucked into the things I entertain myself with. And at the same time they amount to the "material things" that seem to barge into my life over the abstract things I ought to be valuing... so they say. It's so easy for me to get caught up with these random distractions in life that I forget about what I ought to be valuing in life. and in a lot of ways I see other people I know doing a much better job at sorting out these priorities than me, which starts to invoke a sense of jealousy in me.

I need to start being more productive with my life.