- Most of my hometown friends are still going to school. As in, not finished with undergrad yet, with a few exceptions (most of which are still looking at grad/post-grad schools). Especially now that Berkeley's starting up again, I feel really weird about not going back to school. Although granted, if I did go back this semester, I'd probably just take the new Machine Learning class/Databases/Probability/another semester of Japanese.
...Oh wait, that's a full semester there. -_-
But to be honest I'm kinda glad I'm done with school, or at least for now. I feel ready to move on with life.
- Thinking about building my own desktop at some point, probably once I'm settled in up north. I'm afraid the entire process of picking out individual parts might end up in the same way as my previous schedule planning/pokemon team planning obsessions, though...
The worst part of having this kind of obsession is when you spend more than 6 hours deliberating over whether or not to make one change to your current plan, only to decide not to change it anyway... only then to come back to that change repeatedly over the course of the next month because you started to regret your original decision. This is pretty much the story of every schedule and pokemon team I have made in college.
- Speaking of computers, Lappy2 (my laptop)'s been a bit sluggish and warm lately. I called Dell up the other day to replace the palm-pad- the part of the laptop where my hands rest- for an unrelated reason and in the process got sent a new fan, heat sink, and motherboard for free. And a technician to install everything. Having an active warranty is great.
- After messing around with Google Reader for a day a few weeks ago, I now have a new incoming article in my reader feed about every five minutes, although sometimes they come in droves.
Yeah, I know it's overkill to the point that I'm suffocating myself with information. I've been trying to cut back since. But it's incredibly easy to fall into that trap of consuming feed content for hours.
- Indonesia trip... was not a good experience this year, although the food was delicious as usual, up until we all got sick. I wound up going to the ER a week later due to complications from the trip's sickness combining with the cold I caught right when I got back, but luckily that only lasted a few hours. Moral of the story: drink lots of fluids (though not water alone cause it's easy to throw back up again) and eat lots of bananas.
And if you think you're about to pass out, lie down so that you don't accidentally hit your head on anything as would likely happen if you passed out while standing or sitting up.
- I was originally going to make a post about the Florida trip during winter break... and then Disneyland during the summer, but I never really got around to that and now my memory's kinda foggy. Maybe something about Disney World later since most people I know haven't been there before. Reminder to self to get back to this later.
- In the middle of reading Simple Spirituality, a book I bought at Fall Con last year. The points the author hits on resonate pretty well with the issues I struggled with this past year- namely community (see May 7th post) and humility, although simplicity and submission have been pretty relevant chapters also. I kinda wish there was more discussion on these topics beyond what the book gives (it's a pretty short read), but it's nice to start by at least focusing the discussion around these topics.
One thing in particular that the book brought up while reading today is how easy it is to turn the idea of self-sufficiency into an idol. I find this especially true since I hate having to depend on people, even though I actually do depend on others a lot. Likewise, I don't like being depended on all that much... or at least to the point that it winds up being my fault for not being reliable when I'm apparently needed. I guess I hold a lot of stock in the ideal of being a self-sufficient person.
It's not that being self sufficient is a bad thing. It's just that... it's good to know when to admit that you need help. And a lot of the time I'm too stubborn to admit that much. Particularly in the way I've been talking to God lately... I've hardly admitted any real need for him. In which moments I wonder why I bother praying if I'm not willing to admit that I need him in the first place.
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