A reminder

that the number of experiences I have to be thankful for far exceed the number of personal disappointments in my life. It's easy to forget sometimes.

Thanks for the past few days.

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I was about to write something about experiencing anxiety with regards to the "appropriate" way to act in certain situations, but when it came down to it, I realized it really was more about not wanting to be embarrassed. Because I've never really been able to deal well with embarrassing situations borne unintentionally from my own actions and mistakes, and my ego won't allow me to expose myself to anything that might pose that kind of a risk in front of people I'm not as close to. Or even my own family. (hence why I refused to let my mom to teach me Indonesian when I was younger, and why I became so reticent growing up. I couldn't stand it when my family would make fun of me, let alone other people.)

The real me is a lot more vulnerable and easily flustered than whatever image I seem to be putting up in front of the people I know nowadays. Oftentimes now, I feel like I'm coming across as distant or "sophisticated" or stoic or whatever term would come to mind there, and it's probably hindered me a lot from the kind of meaningful relationships I wish I were experiencing more often nowadays. Sometimes you just need to be open to embarrassing yourself in public every once in a while.

I might come to regret that statement later. -_-

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Things to look forward to:

- next installment of Phoenix Wright coming out next month! Download only for 3DS, but still. (and then Layton vs. Phoenix Wright next year! and the ongoing translation of the Miles Edgeworth 2!) and Pokemon too I guess.

- the weekly's: Breaking Bad, Legend of Korra, One Piece. BrBa finale this Sunday!!

- New York this weekend!!!

- West End production of Merrily We Roll Along in theaters next month!

- going home at the end of the month to see Evita in LA with the brother! And maybe pick up a thing or two.

- finally reading A Dance with Dragons at the end of the month because I've been waiting for the paperback version to come out for ages. and lots of books I've been meaning to get to in general.

- living in the moment. still a work in progress, as I'm so prone to getting caught up mentally in other things.

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Aside: I like how my two line post winds up being the most viewed post ever on this blog. About a TV show, no less. Maybe I should just stick to tumblr-style quick posts.

(Just kidding... that's what tumblr is for.)