The moment I opened this up I almost forgot what I came here to write about.

So anyways lately I've been getting a little obsessive about getting around to that list of things I've been meaning to get to but never have. Except to be honest, I actually have been slowly chipping away at it all this time; I just have this overbearing habit of actively trying to add to it so it appears almost as if I'm not getting anything done. I suppose if you compared the net rate of me adding to my list and me accomplishing things from the list, I'd be adding 10 items for every item I accomplish... which is why I always feel like I never am getting anything done.

So with that said, recently I'd been thinking about... keeping a sort of tally of the things I have been getting done, as opposed to keeping a tally of things to do, because otherwise I just continue to feel overly depressed about how massive my to-do list looks. I guess. It seemed like a good idea anyway. But then I started thinking, is this how I evaluate my self worth? By a measure of the "number" of "items" I've accomplished?

mm, I dunno. I guess lately I have been keeping a sort of mental tally anyway. Every day seems more accomplished, every day doesn't feel wasted... or does it? During one of my mind talking walks yesterday I realized that I'd been neglecting the two items that've been sitting at the top of My Listy (stupid Ryan, just typing that name is making me smirk now... wooow I can't stop laughing.):

- read Bible
- PRAY

(there are more things implied by these)

Every time I've hesitated about something related to God and tried to act on it, I've never wound up regretting it (thus far, so to speak... but yeah). So I wonder what's stopping me now.

On another note, recently started Legend of the Galactic Heroes. I like how it takes place in the 35th century and they're still using medieval axes as weapons. Old anime is fun.