Snippets

Disconnect.

Too many disparate things in mind, no time to write anything unless I want to give up sleep.

Aside from that I'm in one of those moods where I'll find myself cycling between moments of perfectionist anxiety followed by apathy followed by optimism followed by cynicism in the same hour.

I've had multiple people in the past few days tell me I look tired, even though in some of those moments I wasn't actually that tired. Well granted I still haven't recovered from the last few weeks, but I hope this isn't a permanent thing. According to Eunice my eyes were half closed while talking to her. I can't seem to open them much wider without considerable effort right now. -_-

Learning more to appreciate what I have, and not try to see myself as an inferior whole to the people I interact with. In a sense I have almost turned the people I know and their good qualities into my idols.

I've been formulating a list of things I'd like to achieve in the coming years. Due to present circumstances, I don't think I'll be able to start anything on it until after I leave Berkeley, which kinda annoys me cause most of it was stuff I originally wanted to do during college. But such is life I guess.

I find myself applying the phrase "such is life" to a lot of things nowadays. Mostly things I find upsetting or depressing. I've come to expect a lot less from the world nowadays, which means that when little good things happen they suddenly become fantastic things to me. I'm not sure how much I like this effect though.