Musings

- I have this tendency to internal monologue at random moments throughout the day. It tends to break off into incomplete thoughts because I have a rather short attention span, and sometimes includes a mix of either replays of particular conversations I've had in the past (more like sound bites; my memory isn't THAT good), or hypothetical conversations that may or may not happen in the future. And by hypothetical, I mean realistically and in-character hypothetical- Ryan L., on the other hand, tends to subvert this in front of me by coming up with stupidly ridiculous and exaggerated hypothetical conversations that aggravate me like no other.

- Having recently rediscovered Evernote (I couldn't figure out what to use it for the first time around), I feel suddenly compelled to make random notes for just about anything. Considering my tendency to make random textfile notes on whatever computer I'm using, I guess it's natural to move them to the cloud. Now I can access my to-do lists from anywhere! (shut up, Ryan.)

- Going on the organizational trend, I have this sort of somewhat logical system set up for online stuff. This blog for mostly text posts, tumblr for random pics/videos I find, google+ for random articles I find, facebook for social stuff (and stalking Nathan apparently, although it's mainly cause he posts so many articles.), and then google reader for articles/rss feeds/blogs which are then sorted into read it later which are then preserved in evernote if deemed worthy enough. And then reddit's always just there.

And as far as lists go- goodreads/myanimelist/icheckmovies/the backloggery/evernote for the rest. phew.

- I should stop obsessing so much over lists. I have this unhealthy habit in particular of making lists of things that I don't quite never get to, as I've discovered over the course of four years that a list I made back in high school is now 70-80% complete.

- I've never really liked instant messaging all that much (outside of for work purposes - otherwise I've grown close to hating it at times), but I tend to be online all the time anyway.

- One of the things I disliked the most about living with people was the prospect of being judged for my lifestyle choices/habits. Things that wouldn't bother me but would bother someone else with more sensitivity; being made light of the things I preoccupy myself with; dealing with the accusation of not eating (I ate a lot of meals when no one was watching >_>).

- That said, I think the main reason I prefer living with people is to make up for my general inclination towards being anti-social in most settings. For whatever the reason I seem to take a long time to actually befriend most people (in a way beyond acquaintances). It feels a lot more difficult when I see other people who, when placed in similar circumstances as me, grow close a lot faster. Honestly, if it weren't for the proximity that the dorms and apartment life brought, I'd probably be a total recluse right now.

In some respects I feel like one even now - in spite of going out a bit during the week, I feel a general lack in actual close relationships out of the ones I have so far here. But I'm still trying, sorta.

- I've grown pretty accustomed to living alone now, but I'm looking forward to having an apartment-mate again.