- Almost drove into a table lying in the middle of the freeway the other day. Wound up swerving to the next lane but my front right wheel still hit the table a bit, and afterwards I thought I was smelling the scent of burnt rubber. Took the car to the dealer afterwards for a long awaited service and there didn't seem to be any damage though, except for a scratch on the underside that can't be seen normally.
- When I'm alone and left to my own thoughts, typically when I'm trying to sleep (although it happened today while sitting in a balcony while watching a concert) - I start getting half crazy thoughts about arranging future meet-ups with random people I haven't talked to in a while, or even just sending them letters or something even though I don't usually write letters. Like I'm schedule-planning who I'm going to contact soon. And afterwards, when I'm more awake (or wake up after sleeping), I ask myself what was I thinking? On a normal daily basis I wouldn't be having these thoughts... or at least that's the kind of thoughts that they feel like.
It's more like I have this mood or mindset that only emerges once in a while, and when it takes effect it feels like I'm having a withdrawal from not seeing specific people.... even if we haven't really talked before, which is weird. And I feel really desperate about wanting to talk, even without knowing what to talk about yet. And then afterwards... it's like I don't know what I was thinking.
And then there's those times, once in a while, where the imagined hangout actually ends up taking place, but it doesn't turn out the way I wanted it to because we didn't have the kind of conversation I was hoping to have or it just went by too fast and felt like we barely hung out at all, perhaps because we didn't know each other that well to begin with. Especially for the non one-on-one's, although even with one-on-one's sometimes this happens too. Except what I was hoping for was probably not in the other person's interest, so nothing comes of it.
I don't like using terminology like one-on-one's though, cause it makes it feel like I'm doing some kind of job like I'm a staff worker or something. Sometimes I just want to hang out with people who under regular circumstances, I might not get to hang out with or talk to as much, for whatever the reason. Do I actually have to have a reason for wanting to see people?
- Speaking of concerts, I feel like I've been over-concerting myself this year. (I blame it on Elan.) I think I'd been seeing an average of less than 1 concert per year since college started (a bunch during a freshman year craze and then one GY!BE concert a few years later), and then all of a sudden this year comes around and I feel like a concert-aholic already.
-- Radiohead
-- Godspeed You! Black Emperor (round 2)
-- Beirut
-- Animal Collective
-- Beach House
-- Stars (in a few weeks)
It's like I've been trying to check off all those bands I got into back in high school (sans Beach House), since for the past while I've only been listening to music on and off, which was why I hadn't been keeping up with music news in the first place. If I want to keep this trend up, then the only bands left on my favorites list that I still want to see or could see are:
-- Broken Social Scene with Feist and/or Emily Haines in the lineup.
(I've already seen them live with only the male members)
This likely will never happen unless I try to see them in Canada. I mean, Lisa and Amy are cool too, but apart from All to All, all the other big female-backed songs were originally sung by those two. Just to see Almost Crimes, 7/4 Shoreline, Anthems for a Seventeen-Year-Old Girl, Swimmers, and Sentimental X's live... okay I'm gushing too much.
-- Asobi Seksu.
(when are they going to tour again?)
-- Yo La Tengo
(has a chance of happening next year since they're releasing a new album! still going strong.)
-- Los Campesinos!
(I feel really tempted to buy a ticket to Treasure Island just to see them... but I don't think it'd be worth it as much with less songs than a normal concert. although M83 and The xx and Joanna Newsom are nice bonuses, I guess.)
-- ...My Bloody Valentine?
(on second thought, I don't want to go permanently deaf from a concert.)
- I usually hardly ever talk about the music I listen to on this blog... or in real life in general, cause it feels like most people I talk to have never heard of the stuff I like (except for Elan and Justin to an extent). And there's those of my friends who go "wtf are you listening to" when I do play something. I guess I do feel the same way about most stuff that plays on the radio though.
And then there's the friends that like to rant about the hypocrisy of indie-hipster culture which is another thing altogether. Of course... I don't really subscribe to the whole idea of it not being cool anymore once it becomes mainstream and everyone listens to it - you gotta own up to liking the stuff at some point. Although it does get tiresome hearing the same songs played over and over again sometimes. I actually like Midnight City, but I keep wondering why the radio station doesn't ever play any of M83's other stuff for once. As usual, I guess.
- Slowdive - Blue Skied An' Clear on repeat. If I were depressed or looking at pictures of dead pets right now, I would probably be crying.
(I don't have any dead pets, unless you count some aggressive goldfish and a goldfish-sized shark.)
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