randoms

happiness is
morning and evening
daytime and nighttime too.

for happiness
is anyone
and anything at all
that's loved by you.

Happiness, from You're A Good Man, Charlie Brown

- Reminds me of that time in high school when I overheard people talking about why they didn't like Peanuts (aka the Charlie Brown and Snoopy series). It was one of those moments where you realize that the ideas and beliefs you took for granted previously were actually more flawed than you realized, in spite of how much they might have impacted you.

- I feel a sense of obligation to make time for people when I often just want to be alone, and end up questioning my own sincerity about it all because of the fact that I do. Do I actually care that much? Shouldn't I be making time because I actually want to make time?

- Those times when you knowingly do something wrong and continue to do it anyway... without remorse.

- I feel predisposed to want to hang out with people who come across as thoughtful and well-liked, which often turns the prospect of hanging out with different people into some kind of a selective filtering process, and I feel disgusted that I do it. This is considering the fact that I also hate the idea of "removing worthless people from your life," because it turns the focus in relationships with other people on yourself and not on the other person... but we all make value judgments anyway when it comes to choosing who we end up hanging out or keeping in touch with.

- We put too much emphasis on our own importance, as if our own words, our thoughts really matter as much as we think they do. Isn't that what blogging is for, in a sense? As a way of putting our own thoughts and writing out there, because we believe that they matter enough to be seen and read by other people. I'm my own biggest reader.