Wow, it is getting to the point where I start feeling pressured to hurry up and post something before the day is over so I can keep up this everyday-post-trend. This isn't healthy.
At some point last week I was starting to hit this breaking point of panicking over missing deadlines and worrying about surviving next week, when midterm season two x project would start. Panicking led to mass periods of inaction followed by intense action followed by exhausted-ness. Except it turned out that my fears were slightly unnecessary, because now all of a sudden I have a lot more time than I estimated. Or I'm somehow discovering that fact by purposefully not working and later realizing how much more time I actually still have to finish things. And I still have time to reflect, I guess. Even though I really want to watch a movie right now.
Since I banned myself from (single-player) games, I have been finding myself more compulsively led to obsessively read about games and then obsess over finding new music and movies (not like I haven't already been doing those things...) rather than actually working. Neither of which is really that healthy. I feel like I'm turning into one of the people who obsess over collecting things without actually using those things the way they were meant to be used. Like the hobby of collecting itself is entertaining in itself, but sometimes it gets to the point where you realize that you really need to slow down and start enjoying things. I keep falling into this mindset of want to amass books and music and movies "to-do" in the future, and then never actually getting to do any of them because I spend the rest of my free time looking for more things to do. I am greedy like that. This is bad.
Maybe I should be Lent-ing from all single-person activities??? Or maybe I should stop trying to drive myself insane. I almost considered banning Wikipedia but that would be like committing suicide for me. I practically breathe wiki.
Sometimes I wish this blog's posts were more structured and organized. But then it wouldn't seem as honest.
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