I have finally passed the runny nose/sneezing stage and entered the persistent sore throat stage. I was awake for one hour today and suddenly felt the urge to take a nap on account of my sickishness, so I took a nap. Upon waking up, I was suddenly reminded why I hate taking naps: I feel groggily tired whenever I wake up from one. My body feels incapable of moving more than a couple of inches and I feel like I'm in some kind of post-apocalyptic daze.
My dreams recently have been becoming less randomly weird and more reflective of the fears that I have. They're not really nightmares in the sense that the only dreams that have made me wake up instantly in shock were the ones where I drove off of a cliff and where I was inside a cruise ship that suddenly sunk in 2 seconds (this seems to be a recurring event whenever I have a cruise ship dream). Oh wait, there was that one dream where I woke up in shock because Ryan told me that he'd slept with two girls last night, but that was more of a surprise shock than an AHHHHHH I'M DYING shock. >_>
But anyway, more recently my dreams have been about unattainable things. Particularly friendships. Or maybe they're not unattainable, but they're unlikely given my history with these people? Or lack of thereof. I feel this natural inclination to want to be friends with friends of my friends, but of course I know that I can't be friends with everyone. But I tend to overemphasize this by not interacting much with people that I don't know as well. I kinda regret it. I haven't actually been remembering the contents of the dreams I've been having, though; it's just the feelings that come afterwards. Kind of a disappointment, I guess.
I like how the titles of my blog posts the last couple of weeks have been more... "thoughtful" or whatever (or until this one, anyway. :P). "Contradiction." "Tonight." "God." "Deep Conversations." "Rain." "Wishing Well." Hah, I think my mind has been on the introspective running lately.
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